Guys! Yes, yes, I'm still alive!
I'm so much sorry for being so inactive lately...I've been busy with the university, but much more busy with life. 'Cause I fall in love with an handsome guy. And he fall in love with me
I still can't believe it. We share our first kiss in May and we got engaged a month after. How can I explain what I'm feeling? This love is so simple yet perfect...he is so special. I mean, I thought it couldn't be possible to find someone who is intelligent, romantic, handsome as he is. He's perfect for me, everything I've been looking for. I feel so grateful to God for making me meeting him.
Everything's perfect? Sob, no. We are made for each other, but it won't be easy. He will go to live far, in Milan, to finish university there.
1.474,45 km far.
1:30 hours of flight.
Of course I'll visit him and he'll come for Christmas, Easter, summer,...but it won't be easy, long distance relationships suck. I don't want to think at it too much, it makes me suffer. Oh my, how much pain it will be! All the great moments we're living are already a memory in my mind! I pass half of the time being extremely happy, half of it being depressed, thinking about the future. If everything will go right, we will be together when I'll finish university and be able to reach him. This is so far in time that I can't stop my self wondering. But even if I knew he wanted to move in Milan before falling in love, I decided not to stop our relationship. I'm scared, of course, but I don't want to have regrets! If I ran away because of fear, I'll lose one of the most incredible things that has happened in my life since I were born.
As you can see guys, I've a storm inside. My feelings are so strong and different that confuse me and it's really hard to take some time to draw something "clean". I drew something, but most are doodles that helped me expressing myself. The thing is that my life has changed and I'm changing with it. I'm discovering new parts of my personality, I have new ambitions and dreams. What can I say? I hope I'll find my balance soon. All it's really new to me and incredibly sweet.
Thank you for having patience, dear watchers!